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Not how I thought things would be now, when I was 16

Monday, January 21st, 2013

So, I saw this prompt on Twitter and it caught my attention. I want to give this a shot.
Here it is:
“When you were 16, what did you think your life would look like? Does it look like that? Is that a good thing?”
First of all, when you are a 16 year old girl, your thoughts of the future are very romantic. Not romantic in the lovey dovey sense, but romantic in the true meaning of the word which is to say, you have your “perfect life” planned out.
I cannot say if the same applies to 16 year old boys since I have no experience there. HAHA
So, when I was 16, wow that seems so long ago.
When I was 16, I thought that right about now I would be married, have a college degree, a few kids… and be living happily ever after.
Well, I got part of it right didn’t I?
I mean, I will have my bachelors degree this May. Start grad school in the fall…
I’m not married, I don’t have some fabulous job, and I certainly don’t have any kids as of yet…
But, I tell you I am living somewhat happily ever after in my own little part of the world.
One thing that my 16 year old self never planned on is me typing this entry out while something is talking to me telling me what letter and words I’m inputting into my computer.
My 16 year old self never thought that in 2 years from that point I would be blind.
But you know what, I don’t think I so much mind it most of the time.
Sure, there are times when I get frustrated and say “If I could just see this task would be a hell of a lot easier.” But honestly, I don’t think there are many blind people who don’t say that from time to time…
But thanks to going blind, I have my wonderful guide dog Leah and I have my awesome boyfriend Taylor…
I won’t ever strain my eyes with all my reading because all I have to do is listen to read.
Plus, audio books give each book a sense of being a minature movie.
My text books, well, I can use the “Find” feature where a sighted person can’t use that on their print books.
I mean to say it’s not all bad.
So, 16 year old self.. I know you had big dreams and big hopes…
But don’t worry, we’ll get there, we just have to take a different route.

Well, almost 10 years after turning 16, I have to say that even though things haven’t played out like 16 year old me thought they should, I’m pretty damn happy with who I am, how far I have come, and the prospect of things to come!

TaTa,
Amanda Ellen